love is α cure. α promise, still so pure. rise like the tide, no need to hide. ғeαrless, just like before.

love? when will we trulely find someone what catches your heart?

i have never been the one to be in love; i have just been happy to hang out with my friends and have fun. but since i been in my first true relationship at the end of last year, i seem that im dieing inside because i want it so badly back. yes i have moved on and got someone else, but the thing is, it's not the same. he is a decent lad, nice personality and caring. but i just dont feel the affection as i did with luke; like not true love, but just some sort of friendship love.

i dont want to hurt him tho, i care for him and i havnt even been with him a week yet! but i just dont feel the same way towards him as he does towards me.

i know you should never dewell on your past, but i am. everytime im with him i just see luke. i just can't help my feelings towards him, but im trying to let go with all my hearts endevour even if it may kill me.

but even tho he has moved on got a new girlfriend and trying to live a happy life, i know hes not happy. thats the thing, its hard to let go when someone is happy and moved on; but alot harder when they move on but not happy.

maybe im just falling like a bird with a broken wing. falling into the unknown what lies ahead.

the good news is i supose that i still can see how things go with my boyfriend, even tho its not the same and it never will be. but i can atleast try; trying doesn't hurt anyone, right?